hello (: changed my blogskin tonight. i rilli like it i think it looks sweet (: unforch when jialing'a'ding saw it she said 'r u sure this is ur blog? it looks like crap!' why thank you darling! hahas
hmw today i went for trg at 830! it wuz nice starting trg one hr later altho it made me wonder wot haoxia wuz gonna make us do. thankfully, nth much! just some feel-good jogging (: hmw after tt we went down to water. wuz a sad paddling day today. i felt so awful and paddled so slowly, worse than a turtle. even the t1s were faster than me... :( i felt so lousy when they all pulled past me but i failed to catch up. mmm... felt like i wuz pulling wrongly cuz the water felt like scratchy plastic, it wuz going chop chop chop. well i wuz right cuz during the 2nd half of paddling haoxia paddled beside me alternatingly saying nicely n shouting 'pull properly! control! etc etc. i think my brain wuz too tired today i didnt even have energy to feel scared of haoxia and rock my boat madly which i would surely have done normally.hmw.n i capped once today. looks like i am back in the vicious cycle again. rilli hope the next water will be better...
mf tracie boss mongmong n shuuy came to bake today. we're such lousy bakers our brownie looks like it has a plastic covering. i think our friends will be giving us such big face just by eating it! hahas let me thank you in advance and also forewarn that any bellyaches are fully unintentional.
hmmm..i didnt go for trg ysd n haoxia smsed me sth like 'good decision that u din paddle today cos u r not feeling well, and its drizzling'. tt fully woke me up from my sleepy mode. i sat ard worrying n feeling scared cuz he sounded so fierce! in the end i called the jnrs (who have all decided not to join :( ) and went back to sleep. i think i should go for trg and just sit there if im not feeling too good next time. okays settled.
ai. wuz talking to meifang at ikea jes now. i realised that i have slowly drifted apart from all my sec skl friends! esp veron...mf wished me luck with her.altho i always say tt it doesnt matter i think tts just lip service and i actually rilli care alot. well i just wento tag her blog. um doesnt sound like much bt its baby steps at least? hopefully my baby steps 'll become crouching tiger flying leaps hahas. and theres kelly chris and jialing! i guess being attached means that other things will naturally take a backseat? i am glad that kelly n chris have found someone to hold them and love them...bt i also do wish that just once in a while, they would think of me too? cuz they are always in my heart..hmw...and i think jialingling is mucho busy with work n skl too. is it a natural phenomenon for your lives to slowly grow apart as u grow older? 'friends can grow together without having to grow apart' i rmb liking this quote so much when i wuz in sec 4 cuz it just felt so apt. now im beginning to wonder how true this line is.. is it too naiff to believe that our lives will stay as close even as we move apart? or is it de rigueur that u'll inevitably drift a lil as u move to different places in life? but that doesnt sound right. wenyi is still as close to her 3 galpals. or as she calls them, sth gay monkeys? hahas. but i rilli envy them though! well...its best not to overanalyse things. as philip was telling me just now, the person who said ignorance is bliss is rilli smart n wise.
well we just got back our 16pf results and they say that i am someone who lays all my cards on the table, which is pretty much akin to wearing my heart on my sleeve isnt it? hmw...i wonder if its good or bad. good for ppl cuz it means tt i am an open book n ergo easy to read? but isnt tt not good for me cuz i am exposing my all for ppl to critisize n mebbe even laugh at? hmw...my new goal shall be to achieve an aura of mystique! does that mean that i am not to write any private stuff here anymore??
goodnight, and goodbye.
frasier has left the building!
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