please don't take my sunshine away
gosh...never thought i'd be this nervous. saturday's less than 2 days away. which means that in 48 hrs time i'll be in the red dragon, trying (but very possibly failing) to align at the start line.ahhh...someone please save me from this terrible fate. gosh. i rmb haoxia saying on wed that everyone reacts to competition differently. i have this terrible suspicion that i am one who doesnt take well to stress conditions. like how i enjoy doing race sets alone(which doesnt even make it a race set technically) instead of in a group chromatogram..why chromatogram? its jes how doing race sets with the other k boats makes me feel cuz im always laggin behind. ahhh. wot if we capsize? wot if our boat trembles alot? wot if wot if wot if....
okays.now that i have gotten it all out of my system its time to psych myself up. the mind is as important as the body! haoxia says wot he wants us to focus on now is CONTROL. controlling our strokes and not letting it go awry in an attempt to catch up with others. controlling our racing heart. controlling our unthinking mind and forcing it to think. its such a wise thing to want us to do. i hope i can do it. all i dare to aim for is that we will be able to complete the one thou and the 500m. as haoxia also said, dont go there with the giving up mentality, nor the get-a-medal-or-die-trying mindset, but to jes focus on the process. yups. i think i shall jes treat this as some kinda friendly training with all the schools. juuuuust breathe in and do it! (:
yay yay there's council election tmr and we are gonna try to leave school. its the single high point of this whole wk...we're thinking of heading to simply bread. sticky bun here i come!!! hahas. bread is such a fabulous invention. there's the generic banana-walnut and chocolate and raisin and wholemeal bread etc from gardenia and sunshine, then there's curry puffs and YAM PIES!!! altho they may not be bread bread...but they're from the same food group rights? and there's nice fancy bread places like simply bread that sell heavenly stuff. hee leilei and lala if i make a successful getaway from skl both of u will have sticky bun to eat too! :D
talked to jin jes now. omg she has this pretty friend klar who's in rj canoe too. and guess wot my dearest jin told her to do. she divulged my absolute secret nickname to her and asked her to call me tt!! gosh!!! dumdum jin. im rilli going to kill u! grrr... but her friend is rilli pretty and slim.. my idol..oops is that bordering on lezzieness? hahas shall stop now.
you know wot. i rilli miss all my sec skl friends and dance partners and primary skl playmates...wish we could have the world at our feet and take time off to see each other again. even just for old times' sake..i dont wanto keep having to rush on with life and leave all my precious friends behind in that way of life i was forced to let go of as i grew up. why cant we bring all that is good and even the not-so-good with us? ahh. is it like that ecological niche thing we studied in bio? u cant ever have two best friends at one time cuz the stronger and better one will ultimately edge the other out? sighs....i wanto be a baby again. everythings jes so simple then. all u have to do is wail and cry when things go wrong and mummy will make everything all right again.
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